Tuesday, November 4, 2008

If I've seemed a little distracted lately, it's because I have been

I have not been able to keep much in my head of late. My mind is a jumbled mess of things that need to get done, things that should have been done, what lies ahead and the possibilities they bring.

I am alternatively excited, scared, worried, frustrated, and depressed. Occassionally I feel all those things at the same time. If I've looked stunned lately, it's probably because I was at the time.

This whole business of selling our condo and buying a house has been emotionally draining, and we still have no sale or a house! We've gone from being super excited about one house, to not wanting anything to do with it once we found out how much work it needed.

We have found another house, one that we are trying hard not to get attached to. But how do you not get emotionally involved when you're buying a house? What would be the point if you weren't? But we are running out of time, and it seems less and less likely that we will be able to sell our condo and secure this house before the deadline set by the sellers. So this morning we talked about the possibility of having to take our condo off the market and wait till the new year to sell it. It's been at the back of our minds for some time now probably, but it was the first we actually talked about it. Maybe I'm being overly pessimistic, but maybe it's better that way and I won't set myself up for a bigger fall.

Amidst all this, there is the the everyday things that still need to get done. I'm still trying to figure out where everything is in our place following the cleanup. We are living in this space, but trying to make it look like no one is living in this space. And we've still got a bunch of boxes in the living room of our neighbour Jean. She's been super this past little while, letting us store our stuff there, watching Snoopy while our place was being showed, and even letting us crash there.

It's all been a little chaotic, and I guess that's worn off on me a little. I feel like I'm swimming underwater most days. Swimming underwater in slow motion. I hope I get to come up for air soon. Maybe I need new drugs?


Mama T said...

Selling a house bites so badly. The only advice I would offer is, don't get too attached to a house (hard) but there are lots of houses out there and the best position to be in is with a firm sale under your belt before you start looking. Seriously, think of the stress of having bought a home and not sold your home yet and the potential of carrying 2 mortgages. Scary and then some. Good luck, and keep smiling.

Justin said...

Thanks Tiff. You're right of course. I will not let ourselves get in a situation where we have to carry two mortgages though. I'm sure my hair would turn white overnight and I would never get another night of sleep every again should that happen!

There ARE lots of houses out there.

Mama T said...

Here's a thought .WHat's the housing market like in Hfx? If it's not great, you might think about asking to extend the conditional offer (I'm imagining that you've made one on that lovely place in the west end?). I don't know though, it can be very heartbreaking when the one you wants gets away, despite all your best efforts.

Justin said...

Oh we've thought of that already. We were originally going to release them from the original offer, but they came back with this deal to sell to us on condition of sale of our condo, with a deadline of 15 Dec. Now they've cut that deadline to 19 Nov.

The good news is the housing market in Halifax is dead or very close to it. So we're thinking the house will probably still be there in the spring and we'll probably get it for lower too. Well, that's what we're hoping anyway.